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| Ty killed himself last nite.
We weren't best friends,
but we were pretty close
He was the first person I ever ministered to.
Please pray for his family and friends.
I don't know what to do...
I've never had anyone close to me die ever.
and this is my last post on this xnga.
clicky here
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| Gosh. U. Thnx for all the cmnts.
*speechless*
But I may not make it back to all of you in good speed...
I'm busy.
Deathly Busy.
But I love you all for cmnting me!!
Haha, and things are doing better with my mother.
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| Yes, miracles DO happen,
and yes, they can happen overnite.
God changed me.
I just had to get out of my way first.
He's been wanting to,
but I cared too much about what people would think
If I really did change overnite.
Like Phillip has been saying,
You can't keep pleasing people
If you want to please God.
So you know what?
I let it go,
I let him change me,
And so much of it happened overnite.
Deal with it.
edit.
my mother is the most obnoxious person in my life.
she doesn't care that I actually am searching for something to do now
something to help keep my head up high with,
but she's going to force me to play a game with her
because that's what "the commercials on tv" tell her.
and thats also what another unamed mother says she should do,
make children be with you-at any price.
Either she was blatantly lying about it, or those people are horrid mentors
Especially when youre dealing with a depressed child such as myself
who is finally trying to get out of it with everything she has
-then she asked me who in my school does drugs.
I'm about to cry because of those things,
and some other things she's making me do.
In short, I make breakthroughs in my life and everything,
and then she beats me back down.
And gets angry and upset at me
When I get upset about being thrown down so harshly.
Hold your head high,
Heavy Heart.
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| It was obviously ALL about Justin,
that's why he had me sing along with him
to ease his nerves.
And that's why everyone clapped for him,
and that's why God used him as his tool
to glorify His name.
I, on the other hand,
Am still as useless as I was
The day I was born.
No one expects me to do anything great.
Ever.
No one wants me to have 2 songs learned and down by Tuesday.
And know that I can do it.
No one pushes me
To do anything in front of everyone.
I'm so alone.
I don't even have a family.
I wish I had a borther.
I need a prominent male figure in my life
to make me feel loved.
Like I'm a good daughter/sister,
Like I can actually do something,
Like if I ended up in the hospital tomorrow,
I'd have a room full of flowers and get-well balloons.
And you know what else?
I don't want to grow up
Because I never had a chance to not be grown up.
I don't want a Sweet 16.
I don't want a date because I'll be 16 and I'll be able to.
I want to be surrounded by people who really love me.
And who would never let anyone hurt me again.
Can't Take It!
Where you are the one,
The one that lies close to me,
Whispers, "Hello, I miss you quite terribly."
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly.
Now there's no place else I could be
But here in your arms.
Here, here in your arms.
Oh, in your arms.
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So you lost your trust
And you never should have
But you never should have
But don't break your back
If you ever see this
But don't answer that.
In a bullet proof vest
With the windows all closed
I'll be doing my best
I'll see you soon
In a telescope lens
And when all you want is friends
I'll see you soon
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